Today, I felt more myself than I have in a while. That's a difficult thing to explain. This past 3 months have been the hardest for me since our second was born. No one could have prepared me for the journey of the purchase of a home, it's renovation, a move from our home of 14 years, and the fixing up of said home for renters. That, and trying to remain a sane, kind, and cognisant mommy, wife, friend, sister, and daughter has pretty much pushed me to the breaking point at times. (Thank you everyone that has supported me in these last few months. It has been a roller coaster, and there were some unbelievably ungraceful moments along the ride. If you saw my not so pretty side, well then, you know what I'm talking about.)
Three years ago, I was snapping pictures of my beautiful little boy, reminding myself to appreciate every minute even if the beginning of his life was not the way I'd planned. This March, things are a little different, but I'm emerging to discover that we have acquired an incredible "new" home and I'm figuring out the rhythm of our days in this space.
6 comments:
So glad you are back to blogging.
I've had a terribly ungraceful YEAR-- you have my fullest sympathy. It is so hard to feel like you're letting your children down-- and so hard to know that once you are stretched as far as you can be, you really aren't able to do/be more. After the transition, though, I'm sure you will be so happy in the new space!
To save you having to venture back onto Facebook-- thank you so much for your kind words. They really mean so much-- and I'm so happy you've been seeing the blog. I figured you just thought I had dropped off the face of the earth (which sometimes I have!). I'm making my way back into grace-- self-inflicted angst is the best kind to get rid of, don't you think. Would you believe that on our road trip it was all blue skies and 55 degrees till we hit your neck of the woods, whereupon it started snowing? Of course you would believe it... if and when winter ever ends up there the kids and I will have to drive over for some mountain time.
Moving, especially with a little one (or two) can be so hard. Glad your pulling through! You'll be sewing in no time - do you have a sewing room in the new house?
One of my girlfriend's gave me a great term the other night. Sometimes we simply reach capacity. That means we'll either overflow or something will go away to get us back to where we can cope/function well. Sounds like you were there.
Absolutely love looking thru baby pictures and it does just seem to FLY by...... before you know it he will be spending Spring Break at the beach with a bunch of friends prior to getting ready to head off to college. So wish I lived there and I would be your right hand woman!! Many hugs, Noreen
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